Archive for December, 2009
« Previous EntriesOuter-Focus Disorientation
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Yesterday while sitting at a stop light I had a momentary feeling of panic as I felt my car start to roll backwards. Before I could think about what was happening, my hands gripped the steering wheel more tightly, and I was stepping harder on the brake.
And then I realized, I wasn’t moving at all. [...]
Inner Experiment Days 10-12: The Epiphany
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It’s December 28th, the “3rd day of Christmas” according to the ancient calendar. Christians used to celebrate the Nativity for 12 days following the Christmas feast (thus the song The Twelve Days of Christmas). So we’re really only 1/4 way through Christmas!
The culmination of Christmas, arrives on the 12th Day. January 6 marks the Epiphany.
In common vernacular when we [...]
Inner Experiment Day 9: A Messy Day…
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Yesterday I was, quite simply, a mess.
David’s Mom went into assisted living 12 days ago because her memory loss and failure to eat have made it dangerous for her to stay home by herself .
She lives just a few minutes away in a beautiful facility where she has her own apartment and gets wonderful care. When we stop by to see [...]
Inner Experiment Day 8: Space for Connection
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Writing this as the sky turns pink through the bare branches in the backyard. Today was the winter solstice; tomorrow the days will begin growing longer again. Fascinating to ponder that the light is growing even as we in the northern hemisphere enter into the coldest time of year….and the hard and seemingly desolate ground hides innumerable seeds [...]
Inner Experiment Day 7: Awaiting the Invincible Sun….
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I’m posting today’s results early because I’m getting ready to head into preparations for the Solstice….
Tomorrow is the winter solstice, which marks the longest night and the shortest day of the year.
Tonight at sunset my family will turn off all the electric lights. We’ll operate by fire and candlelight until tomorrow morning, when I’ll go out to [...]
Inner Experiment Day 6: Peace and Joy in this Moment
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Yesterday my focus was on being an instrument of peace.
Early in the afternoon I caught myself being critical of someone during a conversation with David. “I guess that doesn’t contribute to peace, does it?” I said. As soon as I consciously invited peace into the situation, I began to feel differently about the person. In [...]
Inner Experiment Day 5: Who Is God Being Right Now?
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The fast from multi-tasking, visual media and reading continues.
This week I successfully bought some Christmas gifts in a bookstore without reading anything, an incredible feat considering that for me, walking into Borders during a hiatus from reading is somewhat akin to an alcoholic hanging out at a bar.
I’ve caught myself reading the backs of magazines and books, advertisements and [...]
Inner Experiment Day 4: Falling In Love Again (with my creativity)
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Yesterday was my emotional detox day.
If you read about it then you know the climax was me crying on the eliptical trainer at my gym. It felt good though, so much better than the anxiety and racing thoughts that had been pushing me away from my emotions.
Today was a totally different sort of experience.
It started [...]
12 Days of Christmas Inner Experiment: Day 3, Emotional Detox
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Have you ever done a cleanse? You know, the kind where you eat only veggies or juices or some healthy concoction for several days, perhaps supplemented by herbs for detoxing? I’ve done it many times and the bummer is, somewhere around the 3rd day all the crap in your system that’s been trapped in your [...]
12 Days of Christmas…Day 2 of the Inner Experiment
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Yesterday I made that big commitment to become more “inner referent” and take a fast from external influences such as tv, books, magazines and the like…at least until Christmas. The idea being that I’ll have a clearer mind more open to interacting with the Divine in this magical time of year.
Then this morning I checked my [...]
