Yesterday while sitting at a stop light I had a momentary feeling of panic as I felt my car start to roll backwards. Before I could think about what was happening, my hands gripped the steering wheel more tightly, and I was stepping harder on the brake.
And then I realized, I wasn’t moving at all. It was the bus next to me. As it began to roll forward, my brain incorrectly registered that I was moving as well.
What a great demonstration of outer-focus disorientation! When my awareness is on something outside myself, it alters my reality and throws me off balance based on appearances that have nothing to do with me.
Of course, when we are driving, a certain amount of being aware of what others are doing is appropriate, yet how often in life do we get thrown by what is happening outside, instead of staying grounded in our own energy?
I had a bodywork session this week with Marilyn Eagen (the hormone harmonizer…she’s amazing!) and we talked about the fact that many energetically sensitive people are experiencing overwhelm right now as we’re taking on the collective anxiety and angst of the outer culture. I told Marilyn that whenever I center myself and connect with the Divine, I’m fine. It’s only when I let myself get pulled into the collective intensity outside of me that I feel off. So Marilyn gave me an exercise to do, which I’ll share with you now:
Tap the outer edges of your hands together several times, while repeating your name. The spot you’re looking for is on the side of each hand along the edge, about an inch below where your pinkys meet your hands. I notice as I look at my hands that this spot runs right between my hands’ heart and head lines, which is interesting. Anyway, I’ve been doing that several times a day as a physical reminder to stay grounded and focused on what I want to be creating instead of allowing my energy to get pulled off course by anything happen outside of me. It works!
As we move in to 2010, I invite you to surrender whatever stories and outer appearances deprive you of your power. Breathe. Go inside. Tap your hands! And ask yourself: What do I want to create in this coming year? Why do I want to create that? How does that feel? How does it feel RIGHT NOW? And then bask in that energy as the wheel of the year turns once again.
Peace of the turning year to you,