Being a licensed professional counselor and coach, I spend a lot of time holding a space for people’s pain.
The pain of not having enough.
Not enough money.
Or enough health.
Or enough love.
Or perhaps even more difficult, having plenty–and still feeling like it’s not enough. Because it still seems like something is missing.
Of course, in order to be able to sit with people in that space of longing and loneliness, I’ve had to learn to be present to my own feelings, so I wouldn’t be scared of other people’s.
And I’m very familiar with the tricks humans play on ourselves to avoid pain.
When we feel like something is missing, we do everything we can to fill that hole.
We eat more, we take alcohol and other drugs to take the edge off.
Sometimes we use other people.
We listen to the news, convincing ourselves that the reason we hurt is because of what’s happening out there in the world. Somebody is always suffering. Someone is always hurting someone else.
We numb out on electronics.
We buy something else we don’t need.
We try a new religion, or spiritual practice, or diet, or guru, hoping that this time we’ve found the way to stop hurting.
But none of it works in the long run, because in covering up that hole we feel inside, we are running away from ourselves.
We’re saying to some part of who we are: “You are not enough. I can’t accept you. There’s no place for you in my life.”
And, of course, that self-rejection is the true source of our suffering.
True abundance is knowing, at the deepest level of who you are, that you are enough.
That everything you need is right here.
Paradoxically, in order to experience abundance, we need to start stripping down to essentials, releasing whatever is covering up the parts we’ve rejected.
We need to let go of the masks.
Today is May Day, called Beltane in the ancient Celtic world. It’s a holiday of feasting and celebrating the joys of being embodied.
It’s a festival of abundance.
In order to step fully into that, we need to invite all the pieces of who we are to partake.
We need to rediscover who we really are, shedding whatever is covering and hiding our deepest longings.
Because when we are denying who we really are, and what we really long for, how can we ever experience abundance?
Happy Beltane! As the sun strengthens and the weather warms, may you free yourself from whatever is holding you back from experiencing all the richness life has to offer.
With love and blessings, kimberly
P.S. Immersing myself in POETRY is one of my favorite ways of stripping down to essentials, shedding the masks. I hope you will join my Mom and me on June 1st for our Words of Power: Poetry as a Spiritual Practice retreat! You can read about it and register at http://www.KimberlySchneider.com/poetryretreat